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Created on 2009-04-20 03:06:14 (#19646906), last updated 2009-08-12
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Basic Info| Name: | mca_a |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 12-05 |
BioI have always been a really shy girl due to my dad's death when I was almost 3 years old, I stop eating certain types of food, which has caused me lots of problems for his death too.
When I turned 13 I got into a "dark" phase.
I was a really rebel kid, I was always outside of classes, either because the proffesors kicked me out, I was late, or just because I decided to skip that class.
I didn't pass lots of the subjects, and my mum was really angry at me, still I didn't care.
I started to cut myself too! and one day EVERYONE found out, my mum took away all the sharp things, and I promised to not do it again, but once in a while I do it again.
At the same time I started to "purge", I knew about bulimia and all that but I didn't really know, or realize I was actually going into that path.
Then I stopped purging and started to stop eating, it was really simple, I would not eat for days and exercise for hours in my room, still I didn't know I stopped being bulimic and started being anorexic, I just knew it was bad. so I stopped, just afraid that someone would notice, but I was content with my weight loss, how something that didn't fit me at all because it was too tight, got to loose to wear in like a month.
All that happened to me in like 6 months when I was 13.
Then everything went normal again.
Until I was 15, something inside of me kinda of told me to stop eating, that I needed to do something to lose the weight!
So the next day, December 1, I didn't ate and so on, On december 5, which is my birthday, I didn't eat and nobody noticed, I even didn't cake or anything.
So I lost 20 in december, but my family decided to go in a trip! and I gained 5, which I lost the next week.
So since then I have been strugguling with my weight, and I can't stop thinking about calories, exercise, pounds since then.
So for the last 7 months I have been stopping eating, binging, purging, exercising, taking laxs and all that.
I haven't been able to lose weight in like 4 months and if I do I gain it back.
So I guess I'm the fucked up of my family, and friends.
When I turned 13 I got into a "dark" phase.
I was a really rebel kid, I was always outside of classes, either because the proffesors kicked me out, I was late, or just because I decided to skip that class.
I didn't pass lots of the subjects, and my mum was really angry at me, still I didn't care.
I started to cut myself too! and one day EVERYONE found out, my mum took away all the sharp things, and I promised to not do it again, but once in a while I do it again.
At the same time I started to "purge", I knew about bulimia and all that but I didn't really know, or realize I was actually going into that path.
Then I stopped purging and started to stop eating, it was really simple, I would not eat for days and exercise for hours in my room, still I didn't know I stopped being bulimic and started being anorexic, I just knew it was bad. so I stopped, just afraid that someone would notice, but I was content with my weight loss, how something that didn't fit me at all because it was too tight, got to loose to wear in like a month.
All that happened to me in like 6 months when I was 13.
Then everything went normal again.
Until I was 15, something inside of me kinda of told me to stop eating, that I needed to do something to lose the weight!
So the next day, December 1, I didn't ate and so on, On december 5, which is my birthday, I didn't eat and nobody noticed, I even didn't cake or anything.
So I lost 20 in december, but my family decided to go in a trip! and I gained 5, which I lost the next week.
So since then I have been strugguling with my weight, and I can't stop thinking about calories, exercise, pounds since then.
So for the last 7 months I have been stopping eating, binging, purging, exercising, taking laxs and all that.
I haven't been able to lose weight in like 4 months and if I do I gain it back.
So I guess I'm the fucked up of my family, and friends.
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